Sunday, September 25, 2011

the garden years
that will never come back
query the indian continentals
american dumbass
misguided foam on a wave
that without a cultural monarchy
crashed exponentially outward
which infinitely growing debt
could not stand behind
or outpace
devaluating data
which while slow with the monkeys
found the new primates
reengineering earth
as a machine of thought
without heart
 
 
 
in three hours
a backdrop of sod
mutt buffet or
living carpet
so i bought all this
weed killing fertilizer
and the dogs got sick

when leaves
stopped moving

grass in the 80s







we laid down
nested in it
light strings
new love
without
dollars or data
or other entities
in the soft rain
from lemon clouds
inside the sphere
when  we were young
and  america
could be good
now
espressoing
the mahogany and marble
your shadow numbers
seep into sight
a line of blood
from prior version(s)
and parents decisions
into yours














On our way home from mass we would often meet M. Legrandin, who, detained in Paris by his professional duties as an engineer, could only (except in the regular holiday seasons) visit his home at Combray between Saturday evenings and Monday mornings.
He was one of that class of men who, apart from a scientific career in which they may well have proved brilliantly successful, have acquired an entirely different kind of culture, literary or artistic, of which they make no use in the specialised work of their profession, but by which their conversation profits. More 'literary' than many 'men of letters', endowed with a greater ease in execution than many painters, they imagine that the life they are obliged to lead is not that for which they are really fitted, and they bring to their regular occupations either a fantastic indifference or a sustained and lofty application, scornful, bitter, and conscientious.
Tall, with a good figure, a fine, thoughtful face, drooping fair moustaches, a look of disillusionment in his blue eyes, an almost exaggerated refinement of courtesy; a talker such as we had never heard; he was in the sight of my family, who never ceased to quote him as an example, the very pattern of a gentleman, who took life in the noblest and most delicate manner.
My grandmother alone found fault with him for speaking a little too well, a little too much like a book, for not using a vocabulary as natural as his loosely knotted Lavallière neckties, his short, straight, almost schoolboyish coat. She was astonished, too, at the furious invective which he was always launching at the aristocracy, at fashionable life, and 'snobbishness'--"undoubtedly," he would say, "the sin of which Saint Paul is thinking when he speaks of the sin for which there is no forgiveness."
"Well met, my friends!" he would say as he came towards us. "You are lucky to spend so much time here; to-morrow I have to go back to Paris, to squeeze back into my niche. "Oh, I admit," he went on, with his own peculiar smile, gently ironical, disillusioned and vague, "I have every useless thing in the world in my house there. The only thing wanting is the necessary thing, a great patch of open sky like this.
Always try to keep a patch of sky above your life, little boy," he added, turning to me.   "You have a soul in you of rare quality, an artist's nature;
never let it starve for lack of what it needs."

      marcel