its not hard

to make it last

often came close    

simpler longer

change wouldnt 

not a little 

fancy try

for a tree

just a thought

From the first screaming  breath, we are each a  CEREBRUM AT WAR WITH OUR BODY.  Why the conflict?  Because the body, especially the  unworkable tiny version of the infant, limits the seeming infinite expanse, speed and energy of our thoughts. 

In the womb and for the first three weeks the brain  is paramount.   An infant at birth does not recognize a material world.   Its eyes do not focus.  It may not see itself as different or separate from stimuli it recieves.  Its complete world and currency is stimuli without category.  The infant brain may believe it is the World.  The child  percieves only  its own thoughts and expects its environment to react effortlessly to its thoughts.  This expectation arises not from a sense of entitlement but because the infant believes the world around it is thought indistinguishable from itself.  

The child may recognize  the first separate item as the mother  but then almost immediately realizes that even closer, there is something apart,  whether it be its own hand or the grumblings inside its abdomen.  This is not a happy discovery and the infant body is hardly practicable.  Long months of initial learning and"growing up" consist mostly of realizing what the body can't do, such as waste at will,  and then stumbling control  of rules over the little it can do such as touch, movement and speech.

Adults in our species who instinctively fashion artifices for consumption can scarcely imagine the thoughts of an infant who has yet to  categorize  its thoughts or materia.  But  do not think this newborn perspective which lasts for two to three weeks is forgotten.  Somewhere inside all of us is that memory, though it would not necessarily have any remarkable feature or  characteristic permitting us to tag the recollection.  For the same reason we do not have a memory of the womb. Not because it is dark or our mind is "turned off" but because inside, with the body all but shut down as a sensory device,  all is thought.    

This memory of the brain unlimited motivates us forever.  There are  various familiar mechanisms to simulate this infant conception.   Being drunk or stoned or oriental practice blurs the learned  architecture or "inhibitions" of our usual designs  and may be an effort to recreate this feeling.  The world becomes streaming stimuli again.   Persons regress involuntarily to this state when their brain's neural pathway rules are modified.  Even among the more educated college students,  intoxicating rituals are an attempt to recreate and integrate the infant disposition into the  "adult"  working  world the student is entering.    It is not suprising that these neurochemical tools have been commercialized into product for our largest industries.  While marketed to encourage consumption, these  deinhibitors are unfortunately reduced  through prescription, ritual or prohibition   to a mediocre reliable buzz.  They could provide a scope through the mental infrastructure to the underlying drives of this first infant memory.


How does the naked open nature  of  the infant mind evolve into  the modern scheming entrepreneur?   Our parents are supremely  important in the brain's  first contest  because they provide protection and safety for our mind as it confronts and then masters use of the body. Cerebra are fragile at the beginning of life, in complete lack of control of the flesh that encases them. 

The need for protection and supervision  does   not  end with childhood.  Because of that early protection provided by our parents we look for the same  "salvation" and guidance  often from a religion.   The christian greek and  norse father gods, and  the egyptian and minoan mother gods are patently cognizable as  parent substitutes.