sending signal through the air

                               is it intelligent

(a)scent of sauvage

Collective organization is still so essential today that many consider it, with some justification, to be the final goal; whereas to call for further steps along the road to autonomy appears like arrogance or hubris, fantasticality, or simply folly.

Nevertheless it may be that for sufficient reasons a man feels he must set out on his own feet along the road to wider realms.  It may that in all the garbs, shapes, forms, modes, and manners of life offered to him he does not find what is peculiarly necessary for him.

He will go alone and be his own company.  He will serve as his own group, consisting of a variety of opinions and tendencies--which need not be necessarily be marching in the same direction.  In fact he will be at odds with himself, and will find great difficulty in uniting his own multiplicity for purposes of common action.  Even if he is outwardly protected by the social forms of the intermediary stage, he will have nodefense against his own multiplicity.

The disunion within himself may cause him to give up, to lapse into identity with his surroundings.

Blind acceptance never leads to a solution; at best it leads only to a standstill and is paid for heavily in the next generation.

I am under the influence of things or questions which were left incomplete and unanswered by my parents.

                                          carl gustav

...the senses and the flesh.  Having cried for a time, slept; and at his waking felt first the bitterness of mere cold.  The old servant came and took him back , knowing that he knew his father was dead.  The corpse lay with lips still apart, and brows that seemed unquiet.  He had said little during the last hours of his life; asked for his wife twice, and would not hear that she was dead; bade someone keep Herbert from the water and send for him if the boy disobeyed.  Then moving with his hands, 'My father wouldn't hear of it,' he said; ' his own was lost at sea.  I should have done better.  Ay, but lost on land for all that,

--cast away and broken: not your fault,  sir, not yours.  She thrives, though; but I should have taken the little thing and kept it for all that.  I said her children would never thrive if she married:  she'll die a barren stock--barren.'  After which he fell into a vacuous mumbling state of speech and mind, and gave no more clue to the old story of his weary life, ended and emptied now of interest for anyone alive.

      They buried him three days after; his daughter and her husband arrived the day after his death, and took charge of the boy.  These three and the old woman alone attended the funeral; he was buried by his wife, in the barest part of the grey slope which lay between the church and the water: a naked unquiet descent of land whose lean pale growth of grass was shaken  and vexed by every wind that rose:  for on all sides th bleak churchyard fell away sharply and steeply from around the small church at top; on two sides the thin stormy stream went about it, and the shallow noise of its rapid windy flow was heard all round the hills.  The grass was all flowerless, and full of low stained gravestones.

      After the burial Kirklowes was left in charge of the old servant and a neighbour, and Herbert went to Ensdon with his sister.  A shrill wind shook the trees and bushes about the old house as they started;  the day was sharp and the light hard and fitful.  No rain fell but the flooded burn had not yet gone down; the long reeds sang sharp in the wind, the flowerless heather heaved and quivered under it by fits.  Following the watercourse they passed  out of the line of moorland and under the grey and yellow crags  that faced the low barren fields beyond; dividing these and twice recrossing the broader stream, their road rose again over green hills and between small wayside rocks, formless and weather-scored.  After miles of high lonely land it went down among sudden trees and out into a land of old woods and swift streams, backing and doubling, crossing and mixing and over copse and down from the right hand came a sound and a smell of the sea.  At the next turn they were in sight of it; a spring-weather sea, grey and green as leaves faded or flowering, swelling and quivering under clouds and sunbeams.  The wind played upon it willfully, lashing it with soft strokes, kissing it with rapid kisses, as one amorous and vexatious of the immense beautiful body defiant even of divine embraces and lovers flown from heaven: far out among shafts and straits of fugitive sunshine, near in under cloud-shadows, waking with light blows and sharp caresses infinite and variable smiles of weary beauty on its immortal face, soft sighs and heavy murmurs under the laughter and dance-music of its endless stream.  The water moved like tired tossing limbs of a goddess, troubled with strength and vexed with love.  Northward and southward the grey glitter of remote foam flickered along the extreme sea-line, marking off the low sky so that water and cloud were distinct.  Nearer inshore, the sea was as an April field of sweet and pale colour, filled with white and windy flowers.

      To this, the only sight of divine and durable beauty on which any eyes can rest in the world, the boys eyes first turned, and his heart opened and ached with pleasure.  His face trembled  and changed, his eyelids tingled, his limbs yearned all over: the colours and savours of the sea seemed to pass in at his eyes and mouth; all his nerves desired the divine touch of it, his soul saluted it through the senses.

'       What on earth is the matter with him?' said Lord Wariston.

      'Nothing on earth", said his sister; 'its the sea'.

                                                                                                     swinburne -   1877

mcarthyist palin

reading copy

written for a chimp

cant say no to momma

am I destined

for agony

again

friends

completely comfortable

in love

fingers moving

without context

reading every line

for money

weather smiles

every two hours

in millisieverts

contraception at 150

lymphocytes quitting at 500

and the experts grease their hair

     where is gericault

     bowing and nodding

     when tatami mats are rafts

     and the futures dive 265

a swift is cousin to a hummingbird

catching bugs on the fly

above 150 an hour

in greek meaning no feet

but in chinese a call for soup

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birds who hum:

cant feel the body sound for the light
which organizes into matter

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everybody at least once needs to get their own pie

First Flowers

Her eyes had an outer ring of seeming black, but in effect of deep blue and dark grey mixed; this soft broad circle of colour sharply divided the subtle and tender white, pale as pure milk, from an iris which should have been hazel or grey, blue or green, but was instead a more delicate and significant shade of the colour more common with beast or bird; pure gold, without alloy or allay, like the yellowest part of a clear flame; such eyes as the greatest analyst of spirit and flesh that ever lived and spoke has noticed as proper to certain rare women, and has given for a perpetual and terrible memory to his Georgian girl.  These eyes were not hard or shadowless; their colour was full of small soft intricacies of shade and varieties of tone; they could darken with delicate alteration and lighten with splendid change.  The iris had fine fibres of light and tender notes of colour that gave the effect of a shadow; as if the painter's touch when about to darken the clear fierce beauty of their vital and sensitive gold had paused in time and left them perfect.  The pupil was not over large, and seemed as the light touched it of molten purple or of black velvet.  They had infinite significance, infinite fervour, and purity.

swinburne 1862

sculpture drove

for an early perfection

of imposition on matter

of image

as the most detailed thought

known

image due to its flux

overcame matter

and became a reality

but harken

henry moore serenading

a song of metals becoming mind

again

in your pocket

in black and white

spring in the valley

carvings in an all american johnny house

of course

my time is past

a chance at

seventeen

twenty

gian's marble tears

law

teacher worthey warned

would mechanize

for survival

apocryphon

the teaching of the mysteries hidden in silence

and those he taught to john:

it happened one day when I,  john was going up to the temple arimanios approached me and said,

  Where is your teacher, the one whom you used to follow?

I said "He returned from which he came."

The pharisee said, This nazorene deceived you with error. He filled your ears with lies and  shut your hearts. He turned you from the traditions of your fathers.

I turned from the temple to a mountainous and desert place asking how and why was he sent by his father?  Who is his father?

He told us that the aeon is modeled on the indestructible but he did not teach us about what sort the latter is.

While I was thinking these things, the heavens opened and the world quaked.

I was afraid and  saw a child standing by me.

When I saw him, he became like an old person and he shifted his semblance, becoming like a servant. These semblances before me were not multiple beings but there was only a single likeness having many forms in the light.

And the semblances appeared through each other and had three forms.

He said to me,  Are you are a stranger to this likeness? 
I am the one who is undefiled and unpolluted.

I have come to teach what exists and what has come into being and what must come into being so that you will under­stand the things which are not apparent and those which are appar­ent, and to teach you about the immovable generation of the perfect Human.

The Monad is a monarchy without any­thing existing over it.  It exists as the invisible, imperishable and it is not appropriate to consider it to be like the gods. For It is more than divine without anything existing over It.

It alone is eternal since It does not need anything.  It is totally perfect, does not lack anything. It is always completely perfect in light. It is inscrutable, ineffable and unnameable because there is no one before.

It is neither corporeal nor incorporeal.  It is not such that one could say that It has quantity or quality.  It does not participate in the aeons or in time (as a constitutive part of them). It does not receive anything from another.  

It is one who gazes at Itself alone in Its light that sur­rounds It, which is the spring of the living water.

In every way It gazes upon Its image, seeing it in the spring of the Spirit, willing in Its lightwater which is in the spring of the pure lightwater which surrounds It.

Its thinking became a thing.

She who appeared in Its presence in the luminescence of Its light, was revealed. She is the first power who came into being before them all. She appeared from Its thought, the Pronoia of the All, her light, the perfect power, that is the image of the perfect invisible vir­ginal Spirit,

She became a womb for the All because she is prior to them all, the Mother-Father, the first Human, the holy Spirit, the triple male, the triple power, the triple named androgyne, and the eter­nal aeon among the invisible ones.

It begot a spark of light in a light resembling blessedness, but it was not equal to Its greatness. This one was only begotten of the Mother‑Father who had appeared.
He is his only offspring of the Father the pure light.

And he stood in Its presence while It poured upon him.  After receiving the Spirit he asked to be given a fellow worker, which is Mind. And It stared. And in the invisible Spirit's act of staring,

Mind was re­vealed.

Thought willed to create a work through the Word of the invisible Spirit, and his Will became a work. And he was revealed with Mind and Light. And the Word followed the Will.

And the All was firmly founded through the will.

And from the foreknowledge of the perfect Mind through the revelation of the will of the invisible Spirit and the invisible Spirit named the perfect Human.

And the invisible one gave him an unconquerable intellectual power.

And she surrounded him with a luminous cloud.

And he withdrew from her and abandoned the place where he had been born.

And he was stupefied in his Madness, the one who dwells within him, and he begat some authorities for himself.

He ordered everything in the in­destructible pattern.

And the source of these demons who are in the whole body is fixed as four: heat, cold, wetness, dryness. And the mother of them all is matter.

And all the angels and demons labored until they had created the psychic body.

And their product was completely inactive and motionless for a long time.

'Breathe into his face by your spirit and his body will arise.'

And into his face he blew his spirit, which is the power of his Mother.  The power of the Mother went into the psychic body that they had made according to the likeness of the one from the beginning.

The body moved and gained power, and it was luminous.

And in that moment, the rest of the powers became jealous for it was because of them all that he had come into being and they had given their power to the human.

Yet his understanding was stronger than those who had made him. When they understood that he was luminous, could think better than they did, and was naked of evil, they picked him up and threw him down into the lowest part of all matter.

But  the Mother-Father sent a helper to Adam. She is  luminous who was called Life. It is she who aids the whole creation by toiling with him, guiding him by correction toward his fullness, and teaching him about the descent of the seed and teaching him about the path of ascent, the path which it had come down.

The  light was hidden in Adam in order that the powers might not know,

And the human appeared because of the shadow of the light which exists within him.

They took some fire, earth, and water. They mixed them together with each other and the four fiery winds. And they wrought them together and made a great disturbance.

And they enclosed him in the shadow of death in order that they might yet again form from earth, water, fire, and spirit a thing from matter, which is the ignorance of the darkness, desire, and their counterfeit spirit.

This is the tomb of the molding of the body with which the robbers clothed the human, the chain of forgetfulness.

And he came to be a mortal human.

This is the first partition. The  light who was in him will awaken his thinking.

They placed him in paradise. They said  'Eat in idleness for their delight is bitter and their beauty is licentious  Their delight is deception and their trees are impiety.   Their fruit is an incurable poison and their promise is death.

And in the midst of paradise they planted the tree of their life.

But I, I will teach you what the mystery of their life is, the plan they made with each other, the likeness of their spirit.

Its root is bitter and its branches are deaths. Its shade is hate and deception dwells in its leaves. And its blossom is the anointment of evil.

And its fruit is death, and desire is its seed, and it blossoms from the darkness.

But the tree of the knowledge of what is good and evil is the  light.

They  remained in front of it in order that he might not look up to his fullness and come to know the nakedness of his shamefulness.

But as for me, john, I set them right so that they would eat.

And I said to the Savior, "Lord, was it not the snake who taught Adam so that he would eat?"

The Savior laughed and said, "The snake taught them to eat from a wicked desire to sow which belongs to destruction in order that he would become useful.

And He wanted to bring out the power which he had given.

He brought a trance upon Adam.

And I said to the Savior, "What is the trance?"

He said, "It is not as Moses wrote as you heard. For he said in his first book that he laid him down in sleep, but rather it concerned his sensibility.

For indeed it is said by the prophet, 'I will make their hearts heavy so that they might neither give heed nor see.

Then the Epinoia of the light hid in him.

And the Chief Ruler wanted to bring her from his rib. But the Epinoia of the light is not graspable. Although the dark pursued her, it did not lay hold of her.

And he brought forth a part of his power from him (Adam). And he created another molded form in a woman's shape according to the image of Epinoia who had appeared to him. And into the molded form of womanhood he put the part which he had taken from the power of the human not 'his rib' as Moses said. And he saw the woman beside him.

Immediately, the luminous Epinoia appeared for she had uncovered the veil which had been on his understanding. He became sober from the drunkenness of the darkness and he recognized his likeness. And he said, 'Now this is bone from my bones and flesh from my flesh.

Because of this, man will leave his father and his mother and he will cling to his wife and they will no longer be two but a single flesh.' For his partner will be sent to him and he will leave his father and his mother.

In the form of an eagle, I appeared on the tree of knowledge, which is their so that I might teach them and awaken them from the depth of the sleep.

For they were both in a fallen state and they recognized their na­kedness.

When Adam perceived the likeness of his own foreknowledge, he begot the likeness of the Child of the Human; he called him Seth following the way of the generation in the aeons.

And they were made to drink water of forgetfulness by the Chief Ruler so that they would not know themselves and would not know where they had come from.

I said to the Savior, Lord, will all the souls be delivered into the pure light?

He replied, These are great things that have arisen in your thinking.

It is difficult to disclose these things to any others except those who are from the immovable generation. Those upon whom the Spirit of the Life will descend  will be powerfully present, they will be saved and will become perfect. And they will become worthy of the great realms.  

The power will descend upon every human being for without it no one is able to stand upright.

After they are born if the Spirit of Life in­creases, the power comes to strengthen that soul.

I said, Lord, then when the souls of those leave their flesh, where will they go

He laughed and said to me, The soul in which the power will be­come stronger will be admitted into the repose of the aeons.

I said, "Lord, then where will the souls be who do not know to whom their souls belong?"

In those, the despicable spirit has proliferated by leading them astray. He burdens the soul and draws it into works of wickedness, and he casts it down into forgetfulness.

After it comes forth, they hand it over to the authorities who came into being through the Ruler. And they bind it in chains and cast it into prison. And they consort with it until it awakens from forgetfulness and receives knowledge. And in this way, it is perfected and saved.

I said, "Lord, how does the soul become smaller and return back into the nature of its mother or the human?"

Then he rejoiced when I asked this, and he said to me,  You have understood!  That soul is made to follow another who has the Spirit of Life in it. It is saved by that other one. Then it is not cast into another flesh.

And the angels changed their own likenesses into the likeness of each one's mate, filling them with the spirit of darkness, which they mixed with them and with wickedness.

They brought gold, silver, a gift, and copper and iron and metal and every sort of thing. And they beguiled the human beings who had followed them into great troubles.

They grew old without having enjoyment. They died without having found any truth and without having known the God of Truth.

And thus the whole creation became enslaved forever from the foundation of the world until now.

Still for a third time, (the Saviour said)

I who am the light that exists in the light  traveled in order to enter into the midst of the darkness.   I filled my coun­tenance with the light of the consummation of their aeon.  I entered the midst of their prison which is the prison of the body. And I said, 'Whoever hears, arise from lethargic sleep!'

And he wept, shedding tears; heavy tears he wiped from himself. And he said, 'Who is it who calls my name and from where does this hope come to me who am dwelling in the fetters of the prison?'

I said, `I am the pure light;  the thought of the Spirit.   Arise and remember that you are the one who has heard, and fol­low your root, which is I, the compassionate.

And I raised him up and sealed him with the light of the water so that death would not have power over him.

Behold, now I will go up to the perfect aeon. I have completed everything for you in your ears. I have told you John all things so that you might write them down and give them in secret to your fel­low spirits. For this is the mystery of the immoveable generation."

And he said to him, Cursed be any one who should exchange these things for a gift, whether for food or drink or clothing or any­thing.

These things were given in a mystery.

Immedi­ately he disappeared before him.

John went to his fellow disciples. He related to them the things which the Savior had said to him.

Jesus Christ Amen.

180 A.D.

egypt

desire said 
i did not see you descending but now i see you ascending

why do you lie since you belong to me?

the soul answered and said i saw you

you did not see nor recognize me 

i served  as a garment

you did not know me

Watches and Warnings

...FLOOD WATCH REMAINS IN EFFECT THROUGH THURSDAY EVENING...

THE FLOOD WATCH CONTINUES FOR

* PORTIONS OF NORTH CAROLINA...VIRGINIA AND SOUTHEAST WEST

VIRGINIA...INCLUDING THE FOLLOWING AREAS...IN NORTH CAROLINA...

ALLEGHANY NC...ASHE...SURRY...WATAUGA...WILKES AND YADKIN. IN

VIRGINIA...ALLEGHANY VA...AMHERST...BATH...BEDFORD...BLAND...

BOTETOURT...CARROLL...CRAIG...FLOYD...FRANKLIN...GILES...

GRAYSON...MONTGOMERY...PATRICK...PULASKI...ROANOKE...

ROCKBRIDGE...SMYTH...TAZEWELL AND WYTHE. IN SOUTHEAST WEST

VIRGINIA...GREENBRIER...MERCER...MONROE AND SUMMERS.

* THROUGH THURSDAY EVENING

* PERIODS OF MODERATE TO HEAVY RAIN WILL CONTINUE ACROSS THE

MOUNTAINS THIS AFTERNOON...AND MOVE INTO THE FOOTHILLS AREAS

THIS AFTERNOON. PERIODS OF HEAVY RAIN ARE THEN EXPECTED THROUGH

LATE TONIGHT OR EARLY THURSDAY MORNING. BY THE TIME THE FRONT

CLEARS THE AREA BY THURSDAY AFTERNOON...1 TO 3 INCHES OF RAIN

ARE LIKELY WITH LOCALLY HIGHER AMOUNTS POSSIBLE ALONG THE BLUE

RIDGE.

* THE FORECASTED RAINFALL AMOUNTS WILL CAUSE FLOODING OF LOW LYING

AREAS...SMALL STREAMS AND CREEKS. THE RUNOFF WOULD THEN CREATE

SIGNIFICANT RISES ON AREA RIVERS.

PRECAUTIONARY/PREPAREDNESS ACTIONS...

A FLOOD WATCH MEANS THERE IS A POTENTIAL FOR FLOODING BASED ON

CURRENT FORECASTS. YOU SHOULD MONITOR LATER FORECASTS AND BE

ALERT FOR POSSIBLE FLOOD WARNINGS. THOSE LIVING IN AREAS PRONE TO

FLOODING SHOULD BE PREPARED TO TAKE ACTION SHOULD FLOODING

DEVELOP.

&&

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wait for the next bat

to the face

crushing through

stirrin the stew

being a piece

does not an individual

so I can relax

this gel cupcake

without threat

learning not to grab

because you miss

everything else

from the heights

after the valley